V it felt soooooo good to let it out. I've carried a lot of crap around too. Learned a lot about why I act the way I do. Getting it out there and telling an alcoholic I trust mad e huge difference in how I feel and even act. You can do it if you want to. Sounds like perhaps you do, and that makes me smile for you!
Find someone you trust, someone you respect. You will find a cool sponsor. Love ya!