Day 10 and my AV was pissed!
A usual evening out for dinner, I'd have two glasses of wine before I'd even leave the house, so my two or three while I'm at dinner looked normal. But not tonight...nota, nothing, NO ALCOHOL!
The worst part of it was driving there and thinking about it. My AV was LOUD! "You know, you could have one, maybe two and still feel fine tomorrow". "Maybe you could moderate". Then I think it actually was getting angry because I was feeling insecure with my decision not to drink and it thought I was breaking. "You'll never do it anyway so why bother". "You suck, just drink a freaking glass of wine and be done with this nonsense".
The whole time, having a conversation in my head w/my AV and also just chit chatting with my friend in the car! Multi-tasking convo's I guess!
Well, that was the hardest part. Once I got in the restaurant, I ordered water and was fine and didn't even think about it. Great conversations with real people (AV just gave up and sulked away) and good food.
I can honestly say I enjoyed myself a bit more sober and will be totally stoked tomorrow morning with NO hangover!
It's been 10 days with no alcohol, and also 10 days since I've "socialized". I have to admit, I was worried about going anywhere without drinking but this made me feel a bit more confident to begin possibly pulling a little life together without alcohol. I honestly was starting to think I may have to stay inside and ignore the world the rest of my life to stay sober (ok, a little exaggerated there). I do see a dim light at the end of the tunnel....I will keep going towards it.
And the weirdest part, not one person questioned why I didn't order a drink. They didn't even seem to notice or care.