I'm so sorry, giliji. The hardest part, sometimes, is just accepting the simple truths.
I couldn't believe it when my ex told me about the affair....and that is was still going on. I thought he and I were a team, us and the rest of the world. But he broke that team, and I finally decided I couldn't wait around being one-half of something broken.
I wanted to move on and be whole again, with or without someone in my life. By far the hardest thing I've ever done.
I'm sorry you are hurting today...
Can you distract yourself getting ready for your first day on your new job?! What are you going to wear?!