I saw one of my best friends today. I hadn't seen her since before the half term break but she knew I had planned to start drinking again and I know she was pleased (though she had never tried to undermine me and always told me I had made a 'sensible' decision. She's a doctor so she should know but I always felt that she thought sensible = a bit boring). I told her I had tried drinking again and how unwell it had made me. She looked so sad but quickly pulled herself together and made supportive comments. My AV is now screaming at me to try and moderate again. NO NO NO!!!