Thanks Hevyn. I could kick myself for ever starting again. It's been about 7 years drinking this time, when before I had 7 years sober. But I can't go back into the past. I can only go forward.
The time thing has always been a big issue with me and I don't know why. I am single and although all those married people out there with kids think they are busy, I always feel the same way trying to work, clean house, etc. and never have any help. I have good intentions in the beginning to stay sober and "do the work," but I end up getting involved with "real life" and forget my sobriety.
The AAers say sobriety comes first and it does have to. I have to quit thinking that I don't need the help because that leads me back to drinking again. With support, one day at a time, I know I can do this. I did before and I am praying I am committed and strong enough to do it again.