Okay. The meeting was life changing. I really, really needed that. I understand that I am not responsible, although he tells me it is. I understand that he is not owning his stuff, and as much as I want him to, he probably won't. I can see that he has done the best he can with the tools he has, but he is not on the same program as me, nor is he trying to be. He only wants to continue in the same lifestyle that has been his for 25 years. He is so amazing in so many ways, but i cannot do it any further with him. I miss all of the good stuff, tho. ox thanks...