Hey Nicole.
I have about 5 or 6 weeks sober now too. I just went to my first SMART meeting the other day and it was really really great (I am secular, and AA doesn't jive with me, and I was really nervous about other recovery groups).
SMART is based on cognitive behavioural therapy, and although it's secular, you can still attend if you believe in a higher power. It's like a workshop on how to cope with your thoughts, feelings and behaviours.
I also struggle with feeling disconnected with myself and the world, and am trying to practice mindfulness techniques. I realize that my alcohol use was a symptom of a bigger problem - my mental health issues.
That's really awful that your co-worker commented on your weight. I'm sorry that you went through that. I gained a lot of weight from both medication and alcohol use. I think it's starting to come off now that I'm abstaining though.
Hang in there, Nicole. Things may not feel great right now, but hitting the bottle definitely won't help.