Tomorrow is the day, but tonight I sinned. I was so fearful of how horrible last night was that I drank tonight. I considered it a last "hurrah." I feel like such a bad person. Worse, I did something I have never done, and took a sleeping pill after drinking. This may be indicative to how badly last night went, and the extent I am diving to avoid the same. I am sure I am not the first, but I am so excited for detox, so as o overcome this cycle.