I'm at 150 days sober. This is not supposed to be, or so I thought 151 days ago. At that time I knew I would always be drinking till I was too old or sick, or dead, and would look and feel like s*** until that time. Well, something clicked. Really got disgusted with it all. Admitted to myself that I just can't have that first drink. But how to live without? Habits had to change, and it doesn't happen overnight, or even in a month. And it's not easy. But no matter, I am happier now than I've been in my entire adult life. I am just beginning to find that little girl again. She's still there. Do I still miss drinking? Sometimes, but I can think it through to the painful, ugly end, and look in the mirror and smile back at that person. I couldn't stop drinking for anyone else except myself. I hope you will try sobriety and experience this as well
