Flipped--Graceandbeauty is right. This intense pain and the sobbing crying are normal and to be expected with this kind of pain. This is intense grieving and the way to get past it is through it. No other way. This is the "wailing wall" phase of the grief. The tears actually contain stress hormones that your body is riding itself of. This is natures way of releasing the pain from your body.
You need to be in the presence of other people, right now---that are compassionate and sympathetic to your situation.
(please re-read my first post to you).
It will not always be this way. You will get through this. The sun is going to shine, again--I promise.
dandylion