I had to cut it down to basics Mrrryah1.
If you can only have faith in one thing, that thing should be that things will get better if you don't drink.
I clung to that belief through cravings, self loathing, crises, good times, and I beat back those self sabotage ideas that I knew would lead me into close proximity to a drink or drinkers....and things did get better.
Don't drink - it's simple...but not easy.
You're not alone tho - you can do this
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