Do I need to tell anyone?
I haven't, yet (besides you guys). No one knows of my plan to got to my 1st AA meeting tomorrow, no one knows I was drinking everyday and that I decided to stop the madness two days ago.
To be quite honest, I don't think anyone knows me at all. It's like I'm an actress and I've been given the starring role in the movie of my life called "The Normal Me". When I see people, they see a version of me that hasn't been around in years. It's exhausting....I'm tired of pretending and just want to live without all the crap in my head 24/7. I just want to be the real me without faking it. I know I'm in there, I'm just so lost.
I'm not gonna say anything yet, for fear they won't believe it's as bad as it is. Because I know, then I won't think it's as bad as it is...........and I will drink.
Thanks for listening....