Shootingstar, thank you for that post ((((hugs)))). I think it's kind of funny that I'm 60 and I really didn't start growing up until I started my recovery. The program is both so simple and so hard. Seeing reality as it is and not how we want it to be.
I've made a lot of progress this weekend with everyone's help. I've done a couple of meditations were I turned off the analog, disassembled the pieces and thrown them away. It's been a lot quiter in my head because of that. It's strange but I feel some sadness and grief over that. I think the analog was more real to me than my AW.
Thanks to everyone who have been here for me during my journey. It makes it easier when you know you have such good friends who always have your back.
Your friend,