I did try to leave once a couple of years ago. We ended up talking instead of me leaving. I informed him I was in this marriage alone, and it doesn't work that way. I told him even, if he had of shown me more attention and affection I might not be this slobbering drunk I am now. But I know I decided to drink, it was my choice. But I did want to give him a rude awakening.
But whatever the circumstances were it's embarrassing to be a drunk. I mean really, never in a million years would I have thought I'd have this problem at my age. And thank you for the welcome, least.