There is nothing hypocritical about coming here and interacting while you are struggling - the whole point of it is that you are looking for possible solutions to your problem when you do have a problem. I signed up to SR a long time ago (in 2010), posted briefly several times and received great responses, just did not go any step further to start working on making changes.
You are doing much better than I did back then, because you keep posting... It'll pull together, just please don't give up; try out whatever recovery method looks interesting!