posting this site.
I don't know if I should continue to post on this forum as long as I am still drinking. It seems hypocritical and disrespecting others on this forum. It' like going to an AA meeting and still be drinking. Just doesn't seem right. I want to stop, but this thing has such a stranglehold on me. Part of me just wants to give up and realize that alcohol has won this battle. It just won't give me a break. It wants what it wants. I feel like a little kid that cries until it gets a bottle to suck on. God how I hate alcohol. I know this sounds silly, but if alcohol showed up at my door, I'd kill it.