You may have started to drink again, you may be thinking you failed, but you haven't. If you had you wouldn't be here asking for help. That proves to me the fighter is alive and well and still struggling to overcome this. As others have said, I would go to an ER. Nothing I can offer can replace a medical professional. And as someone who is/was addicted to substances I'm not going to pretend to be an expert on the alcohol part. But addiction I get. And its not your fault. And you haven't failed as long as you're breathing. You're a fighter and you're bigger than this. Bigger than that bottle. You CAN DO THIS!