2much, I never knew who that woman was that would drive to the bottle shop. I would say no more and sure enough she would be in the car and on her way to the bottle shop.
I stopped and started so many times. I would get so scared that I wouldn't stop on those benders. I would think is this the one that that I can't stop, I don't want to live like this.
I am not AA but I would get myself to an AA meeting and just sit and listen, identify if you like, there is something about doing something active about the alcoholism that can help propel the end to a bender.
Just get the through the first day sober and the rest will follow....
Stay close to SR