It's fairly common here that people who are struggling with sobriety provide lists of what it is they can't do to get help. Not a criticism, but an observation.
There are no words, no threats, no rewards that can bring you or anyone else to the other side of what you can't do.
You've stated your fears around not being able to stop this time until you "end up in a hospital or worse," so you seem to know what's at stake. Struggling as you are, there is only one option, and that's to take action.