Cry, sob until you can't cry anymore. Crying is good. It releases so much from your body and mind. You have much to cry about. We all do. We are taught and told "don't cry". Therefore, we hold the tears in sometimes embarrassed to show our emotions. Isn't it strange that we are embarrassed to cry but not to laugh yet each is an equal emotion. If you sob your heart out when you are finished you will feel completely tired, relaxed and relieved. Go to it!