I think its a horrible idea, I know I am not you, don't walk in your shoes, etc and don't know what reasons you have for such a decision but it seems fairly hairbrained to me.
I have nightmares nightly, if I manage to sleep at all, so does my 11 year old daughter, always about him. They haven't yet let up. Surely they will stop one day, when we no longer flinch at the sound of a truck driving down the road, maybe. Maybe meditation before bed might help clear your head of ugliness a bit before sleeping?