Originally Posted by
blake1989 
I admit that just once in my life I'd like a real valentine's day. I already had planned a special one 2 months in advance before pulling the plug in my relationship.
My second confession is this one is going to be hard. Maybe I'm brainwashed. It has always been a day like any other to me, but I'm dreading it. In grade school it was the day when you found out who maybe liked you and you got a card from everyone. I think it's a wonderful idea.....but everyday was Valentine's day for me with my ex. Maybe that was the codependency though.
Im sure sorry blake.. You have more guts than I do right now. Mustering courage to do the hard things is difficult for me. If it wasn't for folks here at SR, who knows when I would have had the mouth piece to talk to my AH this week. I sometimes think all the trouble would go away if he just didn't come back home one day. I'm sure that's not the case, but I wonder about that warm fuzzy thought as I sit here with a splitting headache.
big hugs