Dear Needing, I am so sorry you are dealing with this. it is so sad that you may feel this is your normal. You know you and your child deserve so much better and your husband is using his anger and manipulation to get you to do what he wants (allowing him a place to stay). I hope you are able to find work close to where your family lives. Is there anyone you could stay with till you find work? Anyone to help you at all? You should not have to live your life in fear and your child shouldn't have to either. I pray you find the answers quickly and can get out of this scary situation. Hugs.