For me I was feeling nostalgic and was looking through photo's, came across a load of photo's from the last time I was sober for a long period of time.....it was like looking at a person I'd forgot existed.....all of a sudden i really, really wanted that person back in my life. That was it....had a beer in my hand at the time, put it down and went to bed.
Dee - powerful story by the way, must feel good to know you pulled back from the precipice.