Originally Posted by
doggonecarl 
We are much more than a platform to vent on. While you are welcome to rail against all that bothers you, venting is a poor recovery tool.
Thanks carl. I will do my best to follow the success of others. Something just feels different this time. Maybe in the past I knew I wasn't being honest with myself about quitting. I don't know. What I do know is that I am tired of feeling unhappy all the time. I am NOT thinking of hurting myself so no worries there, just constantly trying to fill a void and alcohol isn't the answer. I'm not the type of person who asks for help usually and convincing myself to even register here was tough.