Why do women give birth to another child after experiencing the pain of the first one? We forget the pain. That feeling of desperation disappears and that is when the addictive voice starts telling you it will be ok THIS TIME. Big fat lie. I need to continue to go to AA meetings, read the Big Book, do the steps, surround myself with people in recovery, do daily readings, and pray in order to stay sober. It is a daily task that has to be the most important thing in my life. If I drink I will go downhill FAST and likely die. It is also very helpful to help other alcoholics get sober..good reminder of how painful it is. I wish you the best!
