Originally Posted by
coming_clean 
I feel angry, very angry. Maybe im victimizing myself but i wasnt born this messed up, in the beginning i was just fine. I was MADE this way and from there i started my own chain of misery and pain...
It is okay to be angry. However, at some point, you need to let the anger go. Or it will just eat you up and you can't move on.
Forgiveness is hard to give, however, in order for us to expect to be forgiven we have to also be willing to forgive. You don't have to tell the person, you can forgive them within yourself.
We can't always helps what happened to us, but we can control how we behave and the choices we make.
There are some amends we can make to people and there are some we can't. I have made amends to the immediate people I have hurt. I personally wouldn't worry about the ones I lost contact with as they are in the past and you have to ask yourself if will serve any real purpose?
I think making amends and forgiveness is about finding peace and contentment within yourself.