Originally Posted by
GreenBottles 
Having an IQ of over 150 it only took me 20 years to realise this too. I feel sorry for others of lesser intelligence who take 30 to 40 years.
Thanks a lot. It took me 40 years.
I highly recommend this book for you:
The Mindfulness Workbook for Addiction: A Guide to Coping with the Grief, Stress and Anger that Trigger Addictive Behaviors: Rebecca E. Williams, Julie S. Kraft MA: 9781608823406: Amazon.com: Books
I didn't want to believe it at first, but that initial clarity and the feelings that come with it often point to the root of our substance abuse. I'm convinced this workbook and related reading and practices will help me steer clear of relapse. Enjoy the journey. The stark raving sobriety will taper off a bit, and you're likely to feel down at times, but it's all part of the adventure.