Hello all,
I haven't been here for a solid week so I thought it time I check back in and say hello.
Today is day 10 for me, Wow!!! I started a new job this past Monday and it is a bit of a commute to and from (48 miles round trip). This has left me a bit tired all week as I am adjusting to the new routine, which I suppose has been a good thing. I have been going to bed by nine pm every night so I haven't really had the time or energy to struggle too much.
Right when I get home from work has been the most difficult, wanting to stop and buy beer on the way home and just get home, relax and drink a few lol.... but I have managed not to do it. I keep reminding myself that the voice in my head telling me I can just have a couple, is truly the enemy. IT is missing the gratification of the buzz and so far I have been able to talk myself right out of it.
I will say that this time around after 10 days in, still feels like it is going to be the win for me. I am just trying to not look too far down the road because that is when it begins to feel just a bit overwhelming. With summer coming and all the fun activities I am so used to right around the corner, I am scared of how I will handle it so I try not to think about it just yet.
As I said in my last post, I am trying not to count days as for me this just makes me feel like there is still somehow some decision or action yet to be taken. I am only mentioning it here as a point of reference.
Anyway I am running on too long but wanted to share that I am still sober and still here. Both feet firmly planted albeit sometimes painfully so.
BTW: I read a statistic this week that said as much as 35% of the US population now does not drink alcohol. For me this was somewhat comforting to know that there are so many people that are making the choice for a sober life. This includes folks that don't have a problem with alcohol. They just choose not to drink. For some weird reason it made me feel less of an outsider to society. Anyway just my thoughts....
Thanks for letting me get a weeks worth of thoughts out there. I am cautiously optimistic for my future now, and have taken so much inspiration from so many of you here so thank you all very much!!!
