Another thing to consider is it might help to talk to a therapist about whether or not you are dealing with PTSD. PTSD is something a staggering number of alcoholics deal with, and dealing with it effectively can help recovery. Maybe it's not relevant, but when I read that, a huge lightbulb went off for me personally. I felt haunted by images of things that I did or that happened to me while I was drinking during my most dangerous time. It took me years to get over them, and I think it would have gone a lot better, and maybe faster, if I'd known to go talk to someone about it. I know some of this is just stuff we all deal with, but if you suffered trauma or abuse in any of these situations, there's more going on than just "give it time" will sort out. My experience anyway.