I'm glad you have a week RJY - congrats
I remember about a week or two out from my 'last ever drink' (which was actually several years away from my real last ever drink, but anyway...)
I'd been doing well - I was sober and I'd even gotten through a few occasions with friends just me drinking NA beer.
This night, I decided to go around to a mate's place - not for a drink but just for a game of darts and a BBQ.
A few others came over too. I sat there watching the other guys drinking - I had a few NA beers with me) and after a while I got really angry that they were having more fun than I was.
I was bored, I was angry, and I felt like I was a third wheel.
so I dumped the NA beer and decided to have a couple of real beers...just for the night.
That was the end of that sobriety attempt.
Don't overestimate yourself RJY - or underestimate your addiction.
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