Good afternoon. Today is not shaping up to be my greatest day ever. The disappointment is settling in, and I am restless and frustrated. On Monday, I drank. Followed by more drinking on Tuesday.... It's eating me up inside!! Why oh why did I make these stupid choices?? I was out of town, and had no intention of drinking, but when the situation arose, I did. Bad choice.
I am beginning to feel like a broken record, as this is the FOURTH time I have done this to myself since last February!! There is something within me that is broken. I must fix this. This is really hard.
Well, instead of just sulking, I will start considering what I need to do to strengthen my sobriety resolve. This is something that I truly want, so I'm not sure why I keep sabotaging my success. I am mystified by my behavior, yet I know that these are the choices I have made.
Day three.
Much love,
MV