I start my treatment plan in 75 minutes.
These past few months have been grueling personally. My depression is getting pretty bad and feelings of hopeless consume me daily. My OCD.... despite how dysfunctional I am I manage to write down how much Ive drank or what I've eaten almost everyday for the past few years- for reasons I cant explain. In these past few months I've been on a cycle of 3 or 4 day binges followed by 3 or 4 days sober. My outlook and mental helth are not good right now. I really hope I can get the help I need and have the determination and courage to follow through. I can't live like this any longer. I'm not really living, mearly existing. I have exhaused almost all my personal resources. Even my internet and gas money is a favor at this point. I'm physically in pretty bad shape with a bad back and torn shoulder. Hopefully I can get some help with that too.
Thanks.
I'll let you all know how it went and what is planned.