Welcome, Kero. I remember the immense relief that I felt when I finally admitted to the good people here at SR, and to MYSELF, that I am alcoholic. In hindsight, it was so obvious that I am surprised it took so long to admit it. So, now we know what the problem is. Finally. Now it's time to roll up our sleeves and fix it, right?
Good luck. I am glad you are here with us.