Hey Jill23... it's tough; I know. Without knowing the drivers for your drinking, I cannot comment too much, however, I can only say for me that it's about the Willpower now. It's not an easy road to travel but our life on this earth is very short. You can and have to do it. I find that visiting this forum everyday helps to confirm why I need to quit drinking and the damage that it does. I'm looking forward to reaching the point when I look back a year from when I last drank and saying 'boy, how did I ever get into that mess'. I know I'll feel much happier and content.