Welcome and congrats on 2 days. Anything different is going to feel uncomfortable at first. I suggest you get to as many AA meetings as you can. Find the ones that feel the best to you and keep going back to those. In no time you will figure out that there are people just like you and not judgmental and welcoming. Read the Big Book..the solution is there. Do the steps and develop a relationship with your Higher Power. Look out for self pity and resentments. Those will take you down fast! I wish you all the best! And if you are in the south western part of Iowa I know of a couple of GREAT meetings. (((hugs))))