I thought I could control my drinking once upon a time long ago.
But, it eventualy controled me. I was a bad drunk, drinking most days. Starting in the morning in the end stages.
Like you, I got tired of the debilitating hangovers.
I called AA, after a particularly bad bender, and they sent me an angel. I couldn't stop on my own.
In AA I met people just like me, with different stories, but all alcoholic.
I've been sober now for over three years. You can do it, too. Just remember how you feel now the next time you get a craving. Come here and read. Stories like yours stregnthen my resolve.
Some of us need help to quit. I did and I had to put my pride and self-will aside to get it.
Best to you and I hope to hear more from you.