You just described me at your age. Contrary to what many of us believed early on an alcoholic is not always that wino in a dark alley. Many are full functioning living a somewhat miserable life on a merry go round.
I will say this, my drinking gradually progressed over the years.
You have a chance of living a productive life should you stop drinking now. Do yourself a favor don't wait like me and so many do to turn your life around. In the end all drinking does is cause misery