It happened to me last night
I have never felt so many different emotions in a single dream.
I was meeting my sober step cousin for lunch. The next thing I know, I have a pint glass of ale in my hand.... I take a big drink of it and think, 'why the HELL did I do that?'. I see an old friend and hand him the glass.... he looks at me and says, 'what am I supposed to do with this?' and I just say 'I don't care... just get rid of it!'. I walk to the table and sit down, distraught. My cousin is shaking his head, I start crying, head in my hands, devastated that I have thrown my hard work away....
Then I started to wake up... I was still upset but slowly became more aware of my surroundings. Finally, I realize what's going on and have a rush of relief wash over me. 'IT'S ONLY A DREAM!!' Wow... what a relief.
After 18 months, it is hard to believe that I am still having these dreams but one thing is for sure.... I am going to use this as another tool in my arsenal to fight the beast! Those feelings were really unpleasant but I know if I do drink they will be MUCH, MUCH worse!