Day two struggles.
Its only day two and I'm struggling emotionally.
I know this sounds crazy, but I feel like alcohol makes me better. It reduces my anxiety, which helps me to be more productive, and face the things that otherwise overwhelm me. It relieves my social anxiety, making me outgoing and funny. It stops the ruminating thoughts that I feel keep me from bring happy.......curbs my anger, helps me let go of things that bother me......
So why am I quitting? Because I know its poison. But I still can't help but feel sad, scared, and overwhelmed.
Not sure what I'm looking for here, just needed to get this out.
Thanks for reading.