I'm happy that your still sober. Reminds me of when I too got first birthday. For some reason all of sudden these thots of getting high on dry goods started relentlessly filling my head. Never had problem w them so 'twas strange & out of the norm. An old timer later told me its the alcoholic mindset that I've made a huge achievement so can try smthg diffrent since booze is out the window. Know it scared me so went more mtgs & did service work
You'll be okay, just hang around the winners