I am tired of being an alcoholic.
I know this sounds weird. I watch tv where they are having a glass of wine, or I look at all inclusive vacations, and I think, wow, I can never do that. I have been making wine since I was young. It is something I enjoy doing and now, that is over too. I have all my pretty wine glasses. Hmmmmm.....I don't want to drink tonight, but I am tired of being an alcoholic. I would like it if after a certain sober time I could just be normal again. I know, silly thoughts, but it is strong on my mind. Anyone else feel this way?