I'm right there with you. First started this journey several years ago, and it took me years to start to change for the better. Just over a year sober now, and life isn't great. I mess up, stay in emotions, don't always do the right thing etc., but I have improved. I have accomplished several things that are firsts, in a good way, in the past year. I am not the same person, and I like my life today a whole lot more then I used to