You can never go back once you have experienced being sober recovery is so beautiful and the other life is full of anxiety drama talking crap sitting around for yours no anything recovery is working on yourself loving yourself spending time with yourself recovery is the best once you have it there's no going back sends you mad I did got to 9 and half months and relapsed and no good came of it nearly died drank more cause I missed out ? And had few more episodes of this not once did recovery do this we think we are boring missing out that is the disease talking take care much love x