Ride on the train to crazy town
So AH hasnt really spoken to me since Sunday. Which is fine. He is also in a terrible mood, snapping since Sunday as well. He (so far as I know) has not had a beer since Sunday. It's ok. But....
My mother has gone to hospital. She is a differnt kind of addict, she is addicted to jellybeans, nose spray, pop smokes and prescription meds. She is physically disabled so for everything except the meds I am her enabler. She whines like a baby if she runs out of jellybeans and you dont go and get some.
ANyways she is in the hospital. She lives with us and was gone by the time I got home yesterday. I went to talk to nurses as they wouldnt give me info by phone last night, when I got home AH was sleeping. He got up this morning, no good bye no nothing. I texted him and told him I wouldnt be home for lunch as I was going back to hospital...no nothing, no how is she, how can I help....etc. No support what so ever. Oh well ...should I be suprised..No.
Now on to her, she is appearing crazy to me. When I went to see her a roomate went to the bathroom and rang the bell for a nurse to come help. Mom says thats the song they play when someone dies, they are playing it all the time, the nurses think the families find it peaceful. She also was laughing hysterically saying maybe she had a stroke and asking if my dogs were dead because they got into her pill bottles because the ambulance people left them on the table. Today she was telling me how the nurses are lying. they are lying to her roomates, they are lying to her, they are lying to me.
The nurses say she seems fine...but my conversations with her have been very trying to say the least. She ran out of a pretty stong prescription over a week ago..so I am unsure if this is still withdrawal, if there is something else, if it is just an act with me. The hospital is keeping her for another day at least, but I am not sure what they are looking for or what is wrong.
She is begging me to take her pills in from home. But I will not give her anything without checking with the nurses. It is very tiring.