Welcome 1978, to a very supportive group of drunks.
Thank you for your incredible honesty in your post and congrats on almost being a Daddy!!! Sounds like you have a lot on your plate- may I suggest some help?
I know for me, personally, I could not have given up alcohol if I didn't have help.
You've made a HUGE step in reaching out here- yay!!
Looking forward to hearing more about your journey.
Joy