Heartstone,
Big hugs to you tonight and in the days to come. While I know you must be upset right now, I am so inspired to read the support you have here--what a wealth of experience, strength and hope! I hope that even in despairing moments you can take in a tenth of the love that's here for you. It will carry you, I promise. We each have so many struggles, and we all feel so alone and isolated sometimes in our days...but never forget that you are among friends here.
We may not have walked the same path, but we are sure familiar with the scenery!
Much peace to you.