Just found out my exah is remarried. It bothers me some. Wanted to post to vent. I don't regret divorcing him. I am more sad for myself that I entered a relationship with someone who was unable to have one with me instead of alcohol. This is his fourth marriage. I am sad that I am alone and unable to engage in a relationship after what I went through. Hope to work on this more once my current situation stabilizes.
For those not not know me or my history - my current sitch is I have been diagnosed with two major illnesses this year which complicate each other. I lost a lot of my vision and mobility. I recently had surgery to remedy the mobility issue and need a lot of rehab. Just lost my job today and applying for disability.
The news that my exah remarried since our divorce two years ago is mildly upsetting only because I see how I have turned inward and avoided any possibility of a relationship. I wish to change this as I dont' want to alone for the rest of my life but see how I am not open yet.
Could use ESH as I face the future and many more changes. (I also just moved) I need to heal physically and emotionally. Nothing new here as m any know - thought I better than I am but cant really say that. This past year I have overcome several challenges to my physical situation with determination. I accepted the need to allow my job to slip away and to move into a safer sitch.
Just wanted to take note that he moved on and I know this- not happy about it but need to remind myself that I am better off without his complications in my life. He would have been on a roller coaster dealing with this past year of medical problems. He didnt' do well with them when married.
Part of the dilemma being married to an A. Letting go, breathing deeply and exhaling the negative. Thanks for listening.
