Sorry you've been messed about Mireille. I had a similar experience just trying to find a sponsor. I asked loads of women and they all just made their excuses. I was beginning to wonder what the hell was wrong with me or if I asked wrong or something. Eventually I found a great sponsor online via the aa forum. Very occasionally she doesn't get back to me but usually it's because she has been ill or busy. We have to remember that other people have their own stuff to deal with and won't be our perception of perfect. Just don't let other people's behaviour make you feel bad about yourself. Usually the reasons for stuff like this is all about them and nothing to do with you x