Congrats on your year.
A lot of people go a bit wobbly at one year - I think it's long enough to forget our misery but often not quite long enough for life to get better?
I think support makes a lot of difference estervaun and you'll find that here
If you're struggling, making some changes in your life for a while can help - maybe it's best to leave the bars alone until you feel secure again?
find somewhere else to hang out instead?
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